I have gone through great struggles in my life I
don’t even know how I even came through them all. All I know is it was by the grace of my
Heavenly Father walking with me through them all. I’ve been abused, physically
and mentally and also molested. My life
has had great challenge’s that has caused me to go the wrong way in life. I’ve
never done drugs nor smoked nor drank. I was very depressed most of my
childhood to adult life. I was lost in a world where I felt unloved. I felt
unimportant to family and friends; I felt a need to love the unlovable and
loved the wrong way.
When I was 20 years old I thought many times to
commit suicide, but one day in my bedroom I was watching TV where there was a
ministry on and that’s when I heard God voice. I’ve been walking with Him ever since. Was I
still depressed? Yes I was! But through the involvement of church and being
around a community of believers I learned to read and know God more deeply and
my pain slowly went away.
My life turned around for the better so many would
say yea right! I got married this year 2013 and my son was born. I have
suffered for over 10 years with Sarcoidosis lung disease and now on June 1,
2013 went into the hospital with leg and feet swelling along with shortness of
breath. This is when my life took a turn
around when my Dr told me I now have Pulmonary Hypertension and I can no longer
work. My life just flashed before my
eyes. What? I can no longer work again.
Tears just started to fall down my face.
I’m thinking I did not sign up for this, a stay at home mom. I thought
my job was to be a help mate for my husband.
For
6 months I have now been home! I have cried so many tears that I can take a
bath in them. But God through it all has
been my comforter, my peacemaker, my guidance, my teacher and so many more. He
is and has taught me through this struggle how to embrace this storm in my
life. I’m learning patience most of all. To wait on Him! Embrace life for life is what we make it!
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